Rachel Phillips
Thursday, May 26, 2016
Hope: Overpowered but Not Gone...Maybe
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
For in Him we live and move and have our being
I have spent the past few hours or so reading and rereading Paul's words to the Athenians in Acts 17. Being an Alumnus from Harding, I'm sure I'm supposed to know a countless amount of information about this passage. I'm probably supposed to know the background of the culture, which missionary journey he was on at the time, where he was going next, what the "meeting of the Areopagus" exactly is, and how the sermon he preached is supposed to show me how to teach other people about God. I probably took several tests over it.
But tonight, I am meditating on God's revelation of who he is and how he has revealed Jesus to us.
"Men of Athens! I see that in every way you are very religious. For as I walked around and looked carefully at your objects of worship, I even found an alter with this inscription, TO AN UNKNOWN GOD. Now what you worship as something unknown I am going to proclaim to you. For the God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and earth and does not live in temples built by hands And he is not served by human hands, as if he needed anything, because he himself gives all men life and breath and everything else. From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth, and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live. God did this so that men would see him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us. For in him we live and move and have our being. As some of your own poets have said, 'We are his offspring.' Therefore, since we are God's offspring, we should not think that the divine being is like gold or sliver or stone - an image made by man's design and skill. In the past God has overlooked such ignorance, but now he commands all people everywhere to repent. For he has set a day when he will judge the world with justice by the man he has appointed. He has given proof of this to all men by raising him from the dead."
This week, I have decided to revel in this idea that "for in him we live and move and have our being".
Only, I don't want to just know it.
I want it to seep into my being and consume me.
Monday, January 28, 2013
The Rich Young Ruler and Me
Monday, July 30, 2012
Oh, How He Loves Us
On Sunday, I sat in front of a young woman who was absolutely moved by the love of God. Oddly enough, I don't even know her very well, just having casual conversations here and there on the days I was in town. It was her first Sunday after major surgery to remove cancer. As I stated above, I do not know her very well, so I won't attempt to pretend I can tell her story or know even know how to express her struggle. Sunday morning, however, the sound of her relishing in the love of God was undeniably moving. I was brought to tears as I listened to her beautiful voice cry out.
It's a mystery how the love of God can bring so many mixed emotions at the same time. I found that while my tears of joy and thankfulness for this young woman were overwhelming, my tears were also somewhat of sadness for the loss of a good friend that was in the same battle. How great is the love of God that it is big enough and deep enough and wide enough to encompass His people. I am so thankful for the vision of His love from both people - one in life and one in death. Oh, how he loves us.
How He Loves Us by David Crowder Band
He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.
And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all.
We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we're all sinking.
So Heaven meets earth like a unforseen kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don't have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way...
He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves us,
Whoa! how He loves.
* The words and music to this song are amazing. You should listen to it here.
Thursday, April 26, 2012
So many times, parts are added up to just be parts.
"A painting is more than the sum of its parts." This is a quote from one of my favorite young adult books. The father in the story says this to his daughter, Juli, to help her understand the value of seeing who people really are by looking deeper. He is, obviously, a painter. He goes on to explain that a cow by itself is just a cow, and the meadow by itself is just grass and flowers, and the sun peeking through the trees is just a beam of light, but put them all together and you have magic.
I want magic.
Bits and pieces. Over and over again. I feel like I have stared at, studied and talked about, poured into, and struggled to only see a beam of light or a meadow all my life. I've seen the parts, and I've added them together. I knew that I wasn't seeing the whole painting, but I couldn't figure out how to express what I was missing.
Back to the ending thing. I think the ending has to do with the way you view the parts. If the parts are just added up as parts, it only yields parts. Confusing? Maybe. I don't want part of the ending.
I want magic.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
"Aaron" painting
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
"Not playing" is never an option.
I found my clarinet at my parent’s house over Thanksgiving. My mom, somehow, was able to talk me into helping her get all 20 tubs of Christmas decorations down from the storage area above their garage, and there it was. Just sitting there. It’s funny how something as simple as a musical instrument can ignite old memories that sometimes feel like they just happened yesterday and at other times they feel like they belonged to someone else. Almost as if I only heard them as a story.
As I opened the case, I tried to remember the last time I played. I couldn’t. Sometime in college. Marching band. Sophomore year. Fall of 2002. Almost 10 years ago.
Maybe I can remember.
Right before Christmas break at Harding, marching band was over, and we were practicing for our Christmas concert to be preformed in chapel. I wasn’t even sure I was going to play because I had just had my wisdom teeth removed, not exactly conducive to playing an instrument, but “not playing” wasn’t exactly an option.
Instead of a memory, maybe it's one big metaphor for my life. The concert went on as planned, not necessarily dependent on my presence. 10 years later at 11:40pm it doesn't seem to have made a huge difference in the world. No one remembers that concert but me, I guess. There were much better musicians in that band than I could ever pretend to be, my my wonderful skills as a clarinetist weren't exactly critical. And yet, 10 years later at 11:40pm, this memory floods my brain, with the resounding theme that seems to have stuck with me.
You always show up. You always play. After all, not playing is never an option.
Right?